So here we are… our Nation in crisis at war with an invisible enemy the disguises itself to most as the common cold and to some as the the invisible germ, but to some it comes on like war horses as the air sacs in your lungs become enflamed and rage against you as you try to breath while fighting a fever! Sounds ugly? It is!
The top that off with fear because you can’t hardly catch your breath and wondering to yourself, “Oh my God, do I have Coronavirus?” “Am I going to die?” Then your loved one takes you to the hospital and you get stopped at the ER door and they take your temp and give you a mask and whisk you away from your spouse of 20 plus years and you don’t get to see them again!! Now the the terror sets in! For both of you.
I was having this conversation with my husband yesterday. We are both in the high risk population. My husband because he is diabetic, he has had cancer, and he doesn’t have a spleen and he is 62 years old. I’m high risk because I am on immunosuppressants for rheumatoid arthritis. But I’m less worried about myself.
I’ve told my husband that if he ended up in the hospital with the virus that I would refuse to leave his side. I couldn’t imagine not being able to be with him during such a scary time. I couldn’t imagine being the one in the hospital and not have him by my side.
I’ve read stories about husbands and wives being separated at the ER door and the husband going home to be quarantined while his wife is in the hospital. FaceTime would be alright until there came a time when that wasn’t possible like in this couples story. She ended up on a ventilator in a coma. I couldn’t deal with not being there to talk to my loved one. To let them know I was praying for them. To say all the things we say to give them hope and to give ourselves hope.
I have so much stuff running through my head. It’s hard to keep track of it all. I don’t want to live in fear, but I want to make sure that “if” something were to happen and I wasn’t going to make it through this that I have said everything I want to say to each of my kids, my grandchildren, and my husband.
Speaking of kids… it’s crazy to watch the young kids (20 something’s), during this crisis. It seems like a lot of them think this is some kind of joke or something. It’s hard for them to think outside of themselves and realize just because they may not get deathly sick doesn’t mean they won’t give it to someone who will. Saw videos of kids licking produce and putting it back on the display and posting it on social media… others going on with their Spring Break parties “before everything gets shut down.” 🤦♀️🤦🏄🏼♂️🤽
I get it… this generation has never seen anything like this before. Neither have I. I know it’s not the END of the world. But it may be the end of the way we know things, at least for a while. So what do we do in the mean time? Some people are scared. Some are oblivious. Others don’t seem to give two f@*#s!
This is what we do… we check in on each other. We talk about our real feelings. We cry, shout, laugh, jump up and down! Do whatever it takes to stay connected to our friends, family, neighbors, church folk, recovery peeps, whoever is important to you. Journal, start a blog, a vlog, write letters to your children, talk to your children, listen to your children… turn the news off, put the phone down, take a break from the bad news and sad news. Get lost in a good book. Go for a walk. Pray. Meditate. Learn to do yoga. Write a book!
Whatever you do stay connected with others via phone, text, meet for coffee in a parking lot cop style. Get creative with your friends. Set up a Zoom meeting, FaceTime, Skype, or however you video chat these days. Remember we are all grieving the loss of life as we knew it. Hopefully it will get back to normal soon but it might not for a while, a long while! Hang in there!!
Here’s where we stand as of today. March 27, 2020.